Life is so good lately, I keep pinching myself.
That last post was me being an idiot, and now it's kind of funny for me to read because I can see where I was at that point and how quickly things changed. However, in my defense, I really did not see how I was going to find anyone to live with for next year. People kept telling me that 'it would all work out' and that I would 'find someone'. I didn't listen because all I could see was that I wasn't making friends and everyone would have someone else to room with. I have a hard time putting my trust in God in times like those, because I'm stubborn. I should've known He had it all worked out.
Point is, I made friends and it's been like a dream come true. I'm like a kid in Disneyland all the time now and I feel like it's not real. That sounds stupid, but that's how badly I had been wanting to make friends for a long time. I was so sick of telling non-school people that I didn't really have that many friends. It's not like I had NONE, because I have a few great ones. Ones that I would never trade for anyone else. However, one of the best ones left school, and the other few were making a lot more friends...and I just wasn't...for almost a year and a half. And it was getting old to me. So it became crucial when one of my really good friends that was left here at school, decided to study abroad this semester. I knew this would be the time for me to make friends. I kind of had to now because the few friends I had went to even fewer.
So I did it. I made some friends and I feel like I'm on top of the world because it's something I had been wanting so badly. And apparently, I am not very used to getting what I want. Which is kind of true when I think about it. I actually have been refusing to believe it at times because things like this don't happen to me. I am so used to having my hopes up for everything and then things not working out that that has become my way of doing. God gave me this one and I am forever indebted. I will not mess it up.
I haven't been this happy in a long time.
School on the other hand, can suck it. It's getting super hard because I'm getting super close to being done. Dumb. This is probably why I'm blogging at 1:30 in the morning instead.
Goodnight.
