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Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Never mind.

Housing problem solved today. Weird how that works out huh?

God is so good.

Looks like I'll be in a house with some of my new favorite people.

'woooooooooooooooooooo' can describe my feelings right about now.

Did I mention we are going to live there starting in the summer too?

HWADJKSADSAKIWEUAIOWEUIOA.

Dang it.

I'm super good at keeping up with this blogging thing huh? Yeah, thought so.

It's that time folks. Housing time. In a couple weeks, all of us Biola students will be freaking out about where we are going to live and more importantly, who we are going to live with next year. We will be standing in lines, getting weird ticket and lotto numbers, just trying to get a decent room. It keeps me awake at night, even though I kinda have a semi-plan. It's the 'what ifs' that get me. Oh well.

What's new with me, you may ask? Let's see...still on track to graduate Spring 2010, so I'm finishing up junior year. I can't believe it, but time flies I guess. I'm still working at the insurance agency, it's been great except Monday I got yelled at and literally wanted to kill myself. I hate getting yelled at. I'm just not the kind of person that can take it, so if you ever want to emotionally destroy me, then yell at me.

Okay, what else.

I am applying for a few summer jobs here at Biola. Even if I have to pay for housing, I will never go back to Visalia. End of discussion. There is no way in hell I will ever spend more than a week there again. Just this past weekend I got yelled at and had to 'do my part to help' around the house (which I would be fine with if I wasn't VISITING for two days and don't even live there anymore. my room is literally covered with layers of dust, I haven't lived in it since high school). Keep in mind I hadn't been home since January 3rd either, so you would think that my family would be excited to see me for the first time in 2 and a half months, rather then yell at me and tell me what chores need to be done. Whatever, my sister is living at home now, so I'm sure that's enough for my mom to handle since they get along better anyway. So I hope some door opens for me this summer. If I do find a place to stay (that doesn't bankrupt me) then I can easily keep my insurance job. My ultimate goal though is to get a part time Biola job with free summer housing on campus and then also keep my shifts at the insurance office, so I would be working full time with both jobs.

Let's end this post with the most important stuff: My girl Kelly Clarkson is dominating right now. Her new single broke the record (which she previously held back in 2002) by going 97-1 on the Billboard charts. Then her album debuted at number one and it is still number one as we speak. She is doing so great, so suck on that Carrie Underwood.

Peace out.

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Blessings.

Life is so good lately, I keep pinching myself.

That last post was me being an idiot, and now it's kind of funny for me to read because I can see where I was at that point and how quickly things changed. However, in my defense, I really did not see how I was going to find anyone to live with for next year. People kept telling me that 'it would all work out' and that I would 'find someone'. I didn't listen because all I could see was that I wasn't making friends and everyone would have someone else to room with. I have a hard time putting my trust in God in times like those, because I'm stubborn. I should've known He had it all worked out.

Point is, I made friends and it's been like a dream come true. I'm like a kid in Disneyland all the time now and I feel like it's not real. That sounds stupid, but that's how badly I had been wanting to make friends for a long time. I was so sick of telling non-school people that I didn't really have that many friends. It's not like I had NONE, because I have a few great ones. Ones that I would never trade for anyone else. However, one of the best ones left school, and the other few were making a lot more friends...and I just wasn't...for almost a year and a half. And it was getting old to me. So it became crucial when one of my really good friends that was left here at school, decided to study abroad this semester. I knew this would be the time for me to make friends. I kind of had to now because the few friends I had went to even fewer.

So I did it. I made some friends and I feel like I'm on top of the world because it's something I had been wanting so badly. And apparently, I am not very used to getting what I want. Which is kind of true when I think about it. I actually have been refusing to believe it at times because things like this don't happen to me. I am so used to having my hopes up for everything and then things not working out that that has become my way of doing. God gave me this one and I am forever indebted. I will not mess it up.

I haven't been this happy in a long time.

School on the other hand, can suck it. It's getting super hard because I'm getting super close to being done. Dumb. This is probably why I'm blogging at 1:30 in the morning instead.

Goodnight.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Spring Semester.

Is probably going to suck.

probably.

Not as much as next year though.

and definitely not as much as after I graduate and have no place to live or go.

I just need good, close friends. stat.

and I also need to stay sane with my roommate.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

2009

You know what I really needed recently? friends. not a lot, just a few. I only have a few so I just needed a few more so I wasn't so lonely. Some friends that would do things with me, and hang out with me, ya know. I have 2 really good friends at home, one in Oregon, a couple at Long Beach state, and a few at Biola. So pretty much all I had most the time was the few at Biola, whom I love dearly, don't get me wrong, they are some of theee best. But it was so hard as they were making lots and lots of friends and I was just....not. one of the Biola friends is studying abroad in Costa Rica this semester. amazing for her. she's great. but I was dreading this for awhile as I knew it would dramatically affect my social life and eating meals in the Caf (as lame as that sounds). I was really getting sick of this friend situation, especially when I go to church and everyone would say 'bring your friends!' and I'm like 'uh k, you know I don't know people and if I did they wouldn't come'. I don't know why I'm bad at making friends. I didn't have that many in high school. I did softball, golf, track, and orchestra. I was fairly well liked though I think, cause I knew everybody and I would talk to them and it was cool, but that doesn't mean we hung out. I had more church friends than school friends, but I had to wait until senior year for those church friends, because I had to break away from my clique I was in to really step into being friends with my youth group. Anyways, what I'm saying is I've never had A LOT of friends. I am perfectly nice to people, talk to them in class, and smile as we pass by. But that doesn't mean we go hang out afterwards. My only chance was when my friends would make friends and introduce them to me. But then I would come off as a weirdo because I was already with my friends and acting like myself and they probably saw it as rude. Who knows. It's pretty obvious I must not make a good first impression. Or I'm very scary or intimidating (or as one guy told me, ATTIMIDATING, HAHAHAHA). So that's why I am just ecstatic right now that as I have been here for my winter class (January 5th-22nd), working every day and then classwork, I was able to hang out with a few people. Last interterm, there was no one around. I would just go to school, go to work, come home, eat a tv dinner, do my homework, watch tv, and go to bed. every day. on the weekends I would sleep or watch more tv. I remember sleeping until 5pm one day just because I remember thinking 'why get up'. Anyways, I have really wanted to hang out with these new people and can't believe that God gave me that. I never thought I would be able to. I mean imagine, ME, actually being friends with someone she wants to. Anyways, it's been a blessing and I can't remember laughing as much as I have lately. Today I cried for almost 5 minutes straight when we were hanging out. I need that in my life. Badly. And there isn't a better time than right now. God is so good. I can only HOPE I get to keep hanging out once in awhile when the regular semester begins next week.

Sunday, December 28, 2008

Best & Worst of 2008

As the year comes to an end, I am going to reflect on my favorite, and not so favorite, moments in different categories. This hopefully will fascinate you as much as it has me this year. We can call this the Deb Awards.

Historical Moments:
-When gas was $4.69 a gallon here, I wanted to die.
-Gas got down to $1.55 here in SoCal.
-Heath Ledger died.
-Barack Obama was elected the first African American president of the United States.
-Proposition 8 passed in California. Gay marriage was made illegal again.
-The crazy wild fires that surronded us in Southern California this semester.
-Talking on your cell phone while driving is no more.
-Clay Aiken came out. I was devastated hahaha.
-My man Michael Phelps won 8 gold medals at the Olympics, while Shawn Johnson and Nastia did serious damage in women's gymnastics.

Female Singers:
-Rihanna (I think 'Disturbia' was definitely one of the songs of the year)
-Britney Spears (OK I am sorry, but she made a great comeback and I can't stop listening)
-Adele (great voice)
-P!nk (hated her song 'Dear Mr. President' last year, but love the new album)
-Taylor Swift (love, love, LOVE)
-Beyonce

*honarable mention-Carrie Underwood (as much as I hate to admit it, her singles were good).

Also many debuted like Katy Perry, Ingrid Michaelson, Sara Bareilles, and Lady Gaga.

Male Singers:
-OneRepublic (quickly became one of my most listened to albums of the year)
-Kanye West (No matter how arrogant he is, he is a great musician and performer.)
-David Cook (I wasn't that into him during American Idol, but now he is like a male Kelly!)
-Jason Mraz (long time fan, not so fond of the radio's constant overplay of 'I'm Yours')
-Rascal Flatts (always puts out songs I love)
-Phil Wickham (also couldn't stop listening to his cd)

*honorable mention-Jon McLaughlin (even though he didn't really have a new single, his performance in 'Enchanted' was enough for me)

Songs to Remember (cause they won't be leaving your head soon):
-Low (Flo Rida featuring T Pain)
-I Kissed A Girl (Katy Perry)
-Love Song (Sara Bareilles)
-No One (Alicia Keys)
-Say What You Need To Say (John Mayer) I have A LOT of things to say about this song.
-Disturbia (Rihanna)
-Live Your Life (TI feat. Rihanna)
-Whatever You Like (TI)
-Love In This Club (Usher)
-If I Were A Boy (Beyonce)
-Apologize (One Republic)
-I'm Yours (Jason Mraz)
-Womanizer (Britney Spears)
-Last Name (Carrie Underwood)
-All Summer Long (Kid Rock)
-7 Things (Miley Cyrus)
-Love Story (Taylor Swift)

TV Shows
-The Office
-Gossip Girl (I read the series so it's a little less embarrassing I guess)
-Psych
-So You Think You Can Dance?
-30 Rock
-Reaper (so underrated but so funny)
-Kath and Kim (I know ratings are low so I can't get too attached, but I laugh so much)
-SNL (solid this year, mostly cause of an overdose of politics, but I adore that Kristin Wiig)

Movies
-'I Am Legend' (I screamed, I cried, I laughed, I now own it.)
-'Wall-E' (awesome)
-Iron Man (didn't think I would like it, but it was as good as everyone said)
-Get Smart (because I loved it, and Steve Carrell)
-Hancock (pretty good and action-y haha)
-Be Kind Rewind (this one was so overlooked. it was hilarious.)
-Baby Mama (2 of my favorite SNL ladies together)
-Kung Fu Panda (funny)
-What Happens in Vegas (This one was way better than I ever expected)
-Definitely Maybe (sooo cute)
-The Happening (I KNOW I AM THE ONLY ONE THAT LIKED IT. I am dumb. Typical Deb.)
-Eagle Eye (anything with Shia is especially good, but this one was sooooooo goooooood)
-Marley and Me (I bawled like a baby but I love anything Jennifer Aniston is in)
-Seven Pounds (I thought it was brilliant. It got bad reviews because of it's 'lack of logic' but I prefer more intelligent movies where you have to think for yourself. It was amazing)
-Four Christmases (Reese Witherspoon? Love. Vince Vaughn? Love. The result was HILARITY)

*honorable mention-The Dark Knight (I can't place this with the rest of the movies because I am the LAST PERSON ON EARTH THAT HASN'T SEEN THIS MOVIE. Everyone I knew saw it so when I came around, no one could go with me. Thanks guys).

ALSO. I need to state movies now that I am almost positive will make my list once I get around to seeing them:

*Benjamin Button (even though I hate Brad Pitt)
*Doubt (read the play freshman year, I'm so excited)
*Madagascar 2

ALSO. Movies that I will probably never see but heard great things about:

*Sex and the City
*Twilight
*Pineapple Express
*Tropic Thunder
*Wanted (I hate Angelina Jolie)
*High School Musical 3

ALSO. Movies you should avoid!

*Jumper

ALSO. Movies that I saw that I am ashamed to say I saw and ended up liking:

*House Bunny
*Step Up 2
*Stepbrothers (filthy but funny)
*My Best Friend's Girl (also filthy)




mmmk. done.

Monday, December 1, 2008

My blog

is pretty dead. I apologize. I hardly write anything that really happens in my life. So I'll write a few random details to get you up to date!

-2 new baby cousins were born in my family over Thanksgiving break. One Monday night the 24th, and the other Saturday morning at 5am. I have learned way too much about pregnancy that it is officially the best birth control available. There are WAY too many details I didn't know that I do not like. Bleh. But anyways, I love little ones and am ecstatic that Kaitlyn Marie and William Jace are here :) Kaitlyn is having some problems in the ICU but she should be better. I also got to meet my 21 month old cousin Kaelyn Grace (the sister of William Jace) and hang out with Kellene Rae (the older sister of Kaitlyn). Good times.

-I just finished a 2 week set of antibiodics for my last illness. I went off them YESTERDAY and right now as I'm sitting here, I feel sinus pressure, and swollen lymph glands with a sore throat. I am terrified. I can't fathom this. I don't understand why doctor's say it's just 'college'. I should be able to fight off things. I get lots of sleep for a college student and try to manage my stress.

-I started watching Dancing With The Stars. I know. WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME. I just started to watch because I was bored and then BAM I was hooked. I love that Julianne Hough though. Too bad she is leaving. Also the season is over so I am not ashamed anymore.

-Black Friday should be a holiday itself. I live for it. That is the ONLY time of year I will happily jump out of bed at 4am to stand in line and buy great things. I love people watching too. This year my big purchase was an mp3 player so I can have all my music in my car finally. It took awhile because I had a 6 cd changer and was sad that it wouldn't get any use. But it will because I have to run the mp3 player through the FM radio which causes static if there is a station there. Not fun. But no other way to do it. Unless you know a way then you should help me. I was looking for a GPS but my freaking sister insisted we go to wal mart first so she could get her camera, and the gps I wanted was at Target. They were sold out when we got there.

-I'm glad Britney is back. Ya, I said it.

-I really want to see Marley and Me (I love Jennifer Aniston!) and Four Christmases (Reese!). I also am really excited for Doubt with Meryl Streep and Amy Adams. We read the play my freshman year here at Biola. I actually read something that was assigned and liked it. Good stuff.

-I am trying to get tickets for the last ever showing of Wicked in Los Angeles. I am ridiculous. This is the 5th time I will see it. And the last. I think it will be so amazing to see the last curtain call and everything. I am too obsessed.

-My knee is still giving me trouble. When I fractured my foot, it affected my whole leg and I still have trouble getting up and bending my knee. My foot is totally fine. Weird, I know. I am still hoping it heels on it's own. I don't need physical therapy. I also still need to learn how to do the back handspring in my gymnastics class.

-For Christmas I am hoping for donations for an electric violin. For those who don't know, violin was my life since 5th grade. The only thing I have ever really been good at. I stopped playing after one year in the Biola orchestra. It was just too time consuming. I did keep playing on praise teams at local churches though, until my electric violin broke. I have not played in probably a year now and it kills me. I hope I still can. Anyways, bottom line is I need a new one and it costs a LOT and I really want one ok?

-My work hired a 2nd secretary. She is my mom's age. I started training her today. It is weird to explain things to people when you have been doing it for almost a year and a half on your own. She literally wrote everything I said down. Hilarious. There is so much to know though.

Well, I'm out.