Ready to share:

Alright. Here is where I am at. My options are:

1). Sub and do odd jobs (tutor, nanny, teacher’s aide, Target, Starbucks).

2). Take the children’s ministries director position at my Uncle’s church. (It’s mine if I want it).

3). Move to Texas/Nevada for 2 years until the economy turns around.

Now number 1 sounds awesome except I would kind of be slacking off and I don’t want my resume to reflect the fact that I got a credential and then did odd jobs for a few years.

Number 2 is what everyone is telling me to do. I can stay where I am, do it for 2 or 3 years, and then teach. I would still be teaching children, but not in the classroom. It’s just not that easy. You don’t go into a MINISTRY position just because ‘it’s a job’. No. You have to be called and I am waiting for that. My mom keeps saying that this could be God’s way of providing for me until teaching turns around.

Number 3 has been on my heart more than I thought it would. I JUST moved and HATED IT (!!!!) so moving again sounds awful right NOW, but I do like the sound of starting a teaching career in the fall with a huge salary. What scares me is that I will build a life out there, maybe meet a guy, and then have to end up living in Texas…and I love California. It still seems exciting to me though. I don’t want to leave my life here though. I also don’t know anyone close enough for support and to do it all alone would be CRAZY.

It’s crazy to process all this and I am a mess trying to decide. Praying for God’s will and answers and peace all the time but still have no idea. I know it will come.