When I Grow Up...

I want to work in the music industry. NOT as a singer/performer, HA! Haven't played violin in a year which is depressing actually, and that is my only talent. But at a record label, or on a tour, or just ANYONE behind the scenes of the music industry. It fascinates me and I love it. Yes part of this has to do with my love for Kelly Clarkson, but honestly, she has opened me up to other performers I wouldn't necessarily appreciate without her approval. She has also allowed me enough of a look at the music scene and how it works and it is just something I would love to be a part of.

I had no idea how many aspects of the music industry had to come together to just promote an artist or to get a song on the radio until I started following Kelly SO closely, to realize how many factors are dealt with. I love trying to guess which songs on the radio will be successful. I love seeing how label and management promotion help an album or single to succeed. I would LOVE to be involved with some sort of art design/stylist assistance to an artist, to fit certain themes for certain moods or performances they are shooting for, whether it's a photoshoot or a special performance of a song.

It has been made apparent to me that my heart is just not in teaching, obviously, since I just majored in it since I had nothing else to major in. I love kids and will always have a PASSION for kids, it's just teaching does not bring out the best in me. And at this time in the world, especially the state of California, there are just so many negative things that one has to consider before attempting a career in education. It's so political now and the schools are in such horrible shape. One may say that's why they need great teachers all the more, however, I think there are way better prospective teachers out there, a lot of them are my peers, that would do a better job than I would.

When I think about teaching, I automatically think "ugh how long am I going to be able to HANDLE that?"

When I think about a career in the music industry, I automatically think "how long would I GET to do that?!"

I know the whole music industry thing isn't practical or realistic. People always ask if you could do one thing for the rest of your life and be happy with your job, what would it be? Easily, if I had the right job in the music industry, it would be that. However, I realize I am being very naive, as I do not honestly realize how the job WOULD be. I am sure there are aspects of it I would not like and you never know anything until you try it really, but that is what excites me.

So as they taught me in elementary school, I want to "dream big" and "shoot for the stars" and maybe my dream can come true someday.

Except I have no idea where to even start. This is where prayer comes in to play, especially with graduation rapidly approaching on May 29th.